Sometimes in life, we are powerless. The media and marketing moguls would have us believe that we can have anything, do anything, be anything, any time that we want (provided we can pay for it, of course), but the reality is that some things are just the way they are and there isn’t much to be done.

As I lay awake last night until around 6am, fretting that I wasn’t sleeping at the correct time and agonising over how this would ruin the rest of my entire life, I eventually shrugged and said to myself, “So, you’re wide awake. You’ll catch up eventually. Just be awake, then.” Of course, the moment I let go of the angst I had pinned to my insomnia, I fell asleep.
I have an exam scheduled for tomorrow morning, which I’d very much like to have done already so that I can get on with my life without having to think about it, but there is nothing I can buy that will make the exam move, or make time go quicker. I could sit and fret, or I could sit and wait. Either will work, but one is more stressful than the other.
This morning, I heard from Cowboy that one of his employers doesn’t think he’s pulling his weight – opinions are like arseholes: everybody has one – and I get very defensive about him when people put him down. He doesn’t deserve it, he works harder than anybody I’ve ever met, often for difficult people, and I am the only lucky soul who gets the brunt of his frustrations. There is nothing I can do about this, though. I can’t snap my fingers and make people change their minds, nor can I magically whisk up the money and wherewithal to get him out of this job and in to a well-equipped ranch of his own so he can work for himself. Right now, I can’t even give him a kiss and rub his aching back.
Powerlessness is an uncomfortable feeling, and many people would demand to try everything possible to avoid it. Some might say “There’s always something you can do about your situation.” They’d be right, but in cases like these, the only thing you can do is accept the situation. Be patient. Be forgiving. Be resilient.
There is a curious strength in giving up the fight against something you cannot overcome. 

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